I allowed myself to become stressed out. I became obsessed with things I have no control over. I lost sight of what was really important. I recognized the error of my ways and and forced my mind to stop. I took a deep breath. I regrouped. I reset my priorities. I feel stronger and in control. A weight has lifted off of me and I can breath again.
Money and food. My albatrosses. I inhaled, thought a lot, did some research, talked to a few friends, and decided to explore Dave Ramsey. I need to learn how to save again. I live tightly, and I believe there is room to change that.
I picked up The Pleasure Trap again, and am still reading. This week I’ve managed to catch a cold. I’m embracing the chapter about how medicating doesn’t necessarily help. I am drinking a lot of Gypsy Cold Remedy tea, and taking Benadryl at night to slow down the sinuses down so I can sleep, and nothing else. How does the saying go? A cold will last seven days with meds or a week without?
I had dinner out with friends on Wednesday. We went to our favorite vegetarian place. When I arrived there was wine, tzatziki, two kinds of hummus and pita bread on the table. I had a little hummus and pita. I passed on the wine. Yes there was oil in the amazing cup of gumbo I had, and the few bites of pumpkin cobbler wasn’t exactly plant-strong either. They were good! They didn’t make me feel sick or overstuffed. I wonder if one can make a really good plant strong gumbo?
Today I made a wonderful lunch. White potato, spinach, tomato, and half an avocado. It was tasty, all the ingredients were fresh, and it hit the spot. My body thanked me.
Yesterday a friend brought me a two huge heirloom tomatoes,a cowhorn pepper, a jalapeño, and a habanero pepper from a U-Pick farm in South Carolina. I gave my boss the smaller of the two tomatoes (she had a rough morning and was eating chocolate at 10am.). I gave the jalapeño and habanero to a co-worker. I’m trying to decide what to do with the remaining pepper. The tomato just may be my lunch tomorrow, with some Mrs Dash. I love those tomatoes!
This evening I went to The Fresh Market and bought an avocado, mushrooms, Honeycrisp apples, a huge amazing artichoke, and a few other beautiful produce department finds. I haven’t been there in ages, and I had forgotten how beautiful that department was. Nothing compares to The Fresh Market experience.
I looked at CRAZY expensive vinegars. I found Bone Sucking BBQ Sauce (I love the name.) I admired the dessert counter…from afar (even though there was a creme brûlée with my name on it.) That would be one of the few sweets I can’t pass up. But I did.
I began making a list of heirloom seeds to buy. I want to grow a few more things on my back porch. Kale, another type of spinach, arugula, and something called a lemon cucumber. I have baby cherry tomato plants popping up, so I will need some dill to protect them. I plan to save the seeds from my heirloom tomato too. Florida has interesting growing seasons, I need to ale advantage.
I also asked my boss if I could spend a couple hundred dollars on software to make a large part of my job more efficient and manageable. Let’s face it, I spend more time at work than home. There’s no sense logging overtime and losing my mind dealing with inefficiencies when there is a solution. She said absolutely. I should have asked three months ago when I thought of it. I just couldn’t bring myself to ask until today.
It’s been a busy couple weeks of being lost in my head and finding my way back. Re-Focusing. Re-Prioritizing. Treading Lightly.